back together and apart

we talked it out, we were okay.
and then  i get an email. not even a goddamn phone call so i can hear you say it.
we're okay when we're together but not when we're apart. that doesnt even make sense.
if you don't have the balls to say it to my face then nothing is actually fucking wrong.
fucking stay out of my life.

I just want some space

i asked him for 3 days of space since we broke up anyway and i just need to take some time to myself to relax and try and get him off my mind.
so he texts me every hour saying that we need to talk about this before i ignore him.  he's beyond clingy right now, and that's severely not okay with me.
i don't have a problem with not talking to him for a few days cuz i know he'll be there when it's over. and if he's not then it's something completely stupid to be upset about. i asked for space becaus ei'm being suffocated by someone i'm not even dating anymore.
we're not dating. we're just friends. just friends don't cuddle like that. just friends dont sleep shirtless together. just friends would stay up til who knows when talking and watching movies and stuff, yeah. but you want too much, and i want too much. and neither of us is going to let it happen so i need to just take space and time so i can try and make myself okay with just being friends. and honestly, this clingy shit is makiing it so much more difficult to be even friends with you.....

 This is my favorite picture of us. This is my kyle. I love him so much.

 this is my boy. my absolute favorite boy. =]

i dont even know...

i'm really not sure whats going on right now.
my heads all sorts of foggy
and it sucks
i just want to be able to stand up and not feel like i'm going to pass out.
i hate being sick
i wish i stayed at kyles right now =/
i dont actually know if we're okay or not... but i hope we are.

My life just kinda feels...

like it's falling apart.
i'm changing my major
my friends are leaving
my friends are hurting
my boyfriend seems distant
idk.... it seems like life is being difficult lately
i also have to drop math because if i dont i'm going to fail

yay.
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