Sunday, January 29, 2012

The other night...

i went to the club with friends and my boy for his bday.  and my friend left her ID back at kyle's house, so we had to go all the way back and get it. after an adventure for that.... i walked into the club and he was in the middle of a grrindline with other guys.
the one in front of him was trying to make out with him.... but he wouldn't let him. it kinda hurt to see him with other guys like that... but i was so happy that he did  that. i know i can trust him. i know i can =]
i love him <3

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Everybody finds a reason to leave...

i thought we could just be friends... but he wants more than i can give him. so he left.
walked right out of my life
how can someone do that. 
i just don't understand.
i hate when people leave
it is the worst feeling in the world.

Monday, January 23, 2012

kyle wrote this.... i just wanna save it somewhere.

Icy as the chill of a winter breeze,
Fiery as the sting from the frozen seas.
Wild as the tears from a child’s cries,
Calm as the pierce from young staring eyes

Behind each soul, a story untold,
Unlock the secret, and a world unfolds.
Heart’s still beating, but life is still
This world anew, is yours to fill.

Paint the skies and add new lands,
Turn stars to diamonds, and diamonds to sand.
You are free to do with it as you please
But you are limited by your creativities.

For If you can think it, so it shall be,
But you’ll find it’s hard to let your mind free
But, no matter how simple my world may seem,
It’s mine to live, and mine to dream

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


i just ... i feel kinda awkward about tomorrow.
i'm going clubbing with kyle and his friends, and becky and jenny.
i'm really worried about it.
like really worried
i just have this feeling like something bad is going to happen tomorrow
and kyle's gonna be drunk and idk if i can handle that... we'll see i guess.
i'm just worried that jenny and becky aren't gonna be sociable with him and his friends... or vice versa and it'll be awkward and i just want everything to be ok and i feel like it isnt so i just want someone to grab me and tell me everything is going to be ok.
i just want to know it will be...